Taking Time Out

Grateful Friday – Three Years Yesterday

My Brother - My hero

This week was an emotional one as yesterday marked the three-year anniversary that my big brother passed away. He was 38 ( just a year older than I am now) and had been ill for some time with a rare disease called Neuro-Sarcoidosis. After fighting the disease since 1997 he finally let go after falling ill with pneumonia. My brother was always my hero as a child and remains so, I miss him terribly.

The photo above has always been a favourite of mine and it shows me (the little blonde) copying the stance of my brother in the middle. To me it clearly shows the fact that my big brother was so important to me, he was my world. In his teens he was a grunger, he had long greasy hair, played lead guitar in a band and had amazing friends who obviously loved him (and who stayed with him for his entire life even after moving away, even now). He was creative, clever and funny and he has influenced me throughout my entire life.

With my brother in mind here is my grateful Friday list for this week.

  1. I am grateful for having such an incredible brother that always had my back and who loved me for me. He always tried to understand me even when I was a difficult teenager and was always there for me when I needed him, no matter what. He tried to understand my panic attacks and anxiety too, never making me feel guilty for things I was unable to do.
  2. I am so grateful that he had an incredible life, even while fighting his illness. He worked for the BBC (and several other television companies) filming, producing and writing amazing wildlife shows. He travelled the world filming fascinating animals and people with his co-workers who became his great friends.
  3. I am grateful for our shared friends, the ones we grew up with. One mutual friend (that I haven’t seen in probably ten years or more) messaged me on Facebook the other day just to tell me that he thought of my brother and me often and always with a smile on his face. His friends keep an eye on me still even though I am grown up now, I think he had the best friends anyone could ask for.

Life throws us horrendous challenges sometimes but even in these times of unrepairable heartache and loss it’s important to find the value in life, don’t you think?




  1. Julie

    This is such a moving post. I have never experienced this kind of loss, but I can imagine how tough things must have been whilst he was fighting his illness and when he finally passed away. I love that you have such great memories too. xx

    18 . Jul . 2014
  2. Nettie

    Thanks Julie x

    18 . Jul . 2014
  3. Mez

    Such a lovely post. That photo really shows how as a kid you looked up to your brother. We have so many things to be grateful for. Thanks for sharing this :)

    18 . Jul . 2014
  4. Nettie

    Thanks Mez 🙂

    18 . Jul . 2014

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