I’ve been pretty good panic wise for quite a while, until this morning. I’ve had a few smaller issues, dizziness when outside, slight moments of unexplained terror but no full blown panic attack in the home. This morning was the first time it’s happened since I don’t know when.
While I am not perfectly fine now I am feeling a little calmer, so I’ve been trying to work out what could have caused it.
• I worked up to two in the morning last night
• I went to sleep about four
• The passing of a friend from a heart attack last week
Give Yourself Permission to Do Nothing at All
I awoke at ten feeling fine and then around half an hour later I suddenly felt terrible. My heart began to race, I began getting pains and all I wanted to do was sleep to get over it and reset. I didn’t want to get out of bed, let me rephrase that, I felt there was no way I could get out of bed. Sleep wouldn’t come so I put Celebrity Masterchef on my Kindle Fire and tried to settle. That didn’t work as it was far too stressful, I switched to Building Dream Homes and kept telling myself I was fine, I was tired and the late night is what set me off.
Now I feel the high panic is subsiding so I thought I would share what I have done to try to reduce the effects of the attack. Perhaps it might be of use if anyone else out there is having a rough time of it today.
• Given myself a break – I am not going outside today and I’m not going to feel bad about it.
• Taken my Vitamin B complex and Vitamin C that I began taking about a week ago. I will be blogging about this in the coming weeks.
• Breathing – Deep breathing with my eyes closed during the sheer panic rushes. In through the nose, out through the mouth and my exhales lasting longer than my inhales.
• Two sprays of Rescue Remedy on the tongue. Two drops of lavender on the pillow.
• Put on my crystal necklace – the stone (I can’t remember what it’s called, will find out) is supposed to help prevent panic and worry.
• Held my rose crystal heart in my hand – supposed to help calm and promotes relaxation and self-love.
• Put subtitles on the Kindle so I could concentrate on the words while watching the shows to stop brain going off on unwanted tangents.
Do Something Normal
I’ve just been up, put the washing on, changed the cat litter and stood in the sunshine for a couple of minutes. I am currently back in bed writing this with some Camomile and Honey Twinings Tea cooling down on the bed side table. I’m feeling a little more at ease and I know that I am going to get through this.
Today isn’t over but I’m proud of myself for being able to think as rationally as possible to pull myself out of the deep dark hole of the panic attack. In the past it wouldn’t have happened, my day, even the next week or two would have a dark cloud casting a large shadow over me. I am going to work hard to ensure life resumes to a more normal and positive state as soon as possible.
I feel I have grown when it comes to panic attack management but there is a long way to go.