I knew moving house was going to bring about some changes but I had no idea how many. I was focused on how our budget will be affected, how many hours we needed to work and how my daughter would adjust to the distance. I thought that having double glazing and a dishwasher would be a major difference, and they are, but there have been many unexpected changes that are far more important.
Night Owl No More?
I’ve never ever been able to fall asleep at a decent time (except perhaps as a baby, I have no idea). As a child I was sent to be early and I’d spend hours awake in my room. I’d read, listen to my Care Bear movie tape and tip toe to the top of the stairs where I’d sit and listen to the television downstairs. As an adult I went to bed about 2 and I’d fall asleep anytime up to about 5 o’clock. I’d awake to do the school run, sleep and wake up around noon and work until around midnight. Yes, my body clock was screwed and this lifestyle certainly caused problems for my mental health and life in general.
Since moving I’ve not been able to stay up past about 12.30 and I wake up naturally around 8 – except on a school day when I’m up at 6.30. And I am loving it! I’ve always yearned to be one of the ‘normal people’ who are able to sleep well at night and wake up early, perhaps now I’m one of them? I feel amazing. I’m up and able to enjoy the sun as it rises over the horizon, thanks to the incredible views from my new house. I watch the birds play, fight and feed and the mist or clouds rise over the town below. These simple pleasures are making me happy, it’s the perfect way to start the day.
These Boots Weren’t Made for Walking
The other difference is the amount of time I’m spending outside. I spent most of my time inside, even when agoraphobia and my panic disorder weren’t causing problems. I am certainly a home girl, I love to be indoors but now I’m embracing the outdoors more than I have in years. I put it down to the beautiful area I live in, with incredible walks right on my doorstep, leading me to a different land full of wildlife, breath-taking vistas, history and discovery.
I’ve been living here for 17 days and in that time I’ve walked 25 miles, AT LEAST. I’ve been using the Map My Walk app on my HTC One, but I’ve not mapped every walk and I had a couple of problems with the GPS last week so not all walks have been measured. Those miles include walks in woods, over hills, into town, into the city and down the retail park. We’ve also been walking to the local well and collecting fresh spring water that tastes so pure.
The blisters I’ve had during these couple of weeks have been horrendous. I tried wearing all my sensible shoes, Converse pumps and boots, biker boots and trainers, the only ones that didn’t disfigure my feet were my hideous lilac Nikes. Even my hiking boots left me with massive blisters on the soles of my feet. So I was naughty and I treated myself to the Liberty Print Nike Internationalists at the weekend and they’re fantastic, no more blisters from now on, yippee!
Panic Be Gone
Another thing I’ve noticed is how under control my panic is at the moment. It was going great before I moved but I’ve since almost entirely let go of my security blankets when I leave the home – crystals, lavender oil and Rescue Remedy. I don’t even think about them, I put on my shoes and go. I’ve been the pub a few times and had a good time. I went into the city on a Saturday, waited in shops and asked for assistance without any flood of fear waving over me. I’ve seen friends and met new people and it feels fantastic.
I feel less stress and I know some of that is down to knowing this home isn’t detrimental to our health. It’s clean, there’s no work that NEEDS to be done to it. Even my crazy dog has become calmer since moving here and my stress levels have dropped thanks to that.
Before I left my old house I told myself I was leaving the panic there. I do have a massive challenge coming up – facing my dental phobia – and I expect it to be difficult – but I don’t think it will throw me back into the disorder in any other part of my life.
I don’t know if this new lifestyle will remain but I hope it will. It’s amazing how a move, even one just a couple of miles away, can change your habits and outlook on life. If you’re stuck in a house you know isn’t good for you I highly recommend dedicating all the resources you can to getting out of there. It is a risk, but it’s one that could change your life for the better.